My journey with WDP started where most journeys start! In a crack house!!
I was using heroin which is my drug of choice as we say, I was moaning and complaining I wanted to stop, I had relapsed after finding my mother dead.
Someone suggested I go to WDP, at first I dismissed the suggestion thinking the idea was futile and I said so, I said I needed a detox, a statutory organisation someone who can find a detox! Not someone to talk to, I got plenty of people to talk to; I don’t know where I got that idea from the only person I had to talk to was the dealer.
Anyway I had no where else to go so I went, st johns hill had already said they couldn’t help because I was no longer a priority ,all they were offering was a methadone script, that only makes the situation worse, a double habit is not an improvement on the situation, so with much misgiving’s I went to the WDP where I met Terri, I felt so very hopeless and she gave me hope from day one ,it is not an exaggeration to say she saved my life, at the time I just wanted to go with my mum but I have two children and no extended family, although they are adults,19 and 27 they still need me and I know it.
I kept telling Terri she wouldn’t be able to help; she just looked at me with complete compassion and understanding and said we’ll see,” bloody hell writing this is making me feel emotional” anyway she spoke to st johns hill, I don’t know what she said because I thought all hope was lost, I hasten to add city roads wouldn’t have me either, they couldn’t get any funding from Wandsworth, anyway the next thing I know I was on the waiting list to go into Springfield’s, it felt like a lottery win, I cant describe the relief I felt. In the mean time WDP supported me though the waiting and in that time made in see the sense of using the NX, which I did on a regular basis.
I went into detox a couple of weeks later thinking I wouldn’t need any more support from WDP, that’s made me smile, yet again I couldn’t have been more wrong, when I came out of detox I was lost, I was so full of a million feelings, not one of which I could cope with, the grief was overwhelming, physically, mentally, and emotionally. I was really struggling to cope and again Terri was there, WDP was like a life support around this time, I wouldn’t have made it, I didn’t have a clue how to cope, I just kept running to WDP instead of the dealer.
I went in there everyday almost or every time I needed to until I went into treatment, the ongoing support they have given me is priceless, and you just cannot get that kind of support anywhere, certainly not from a statutory organisation, please don’t misunderstand as I am so very grateful for the funding as always will be but without the right support its futile. WDP held my hand right the way through it, from start to finish, they were there.